Sunday. Always a strange day for me. No matter how hard I try, the second half of it is usually spent feeling a little miserable and anxious, knowing that another weekend will soon be over and it will be back to work tomorrow. I call this the ‘Sunday Blues’.
I know I’m not alone in this (other colleagues will hold their hands up and admit to this too) but I really need to get out of this habit of wishing my life away. Its going fast enough as it is. Something else to add to my ever growing list of ‘things I’d like to change about me’.
As so much in my life, the answer isn’t as straight forward as just getting a new job. I don’t think it would matter what job I was doing, unless it was something creative I would probably feel the same way. And I’m not sure the middle of an M.E. flare up is the best time to start looking for a new job!
Before the ‘Sunday Blues’ hit, I made time this morning to continue with week one’s exercises for The Alternative Tarot Course. Slightly scary stuff today – a six card spread which Beth created and called The Reader’s Reading. The idea is to learn more about yourself as a tarot reader. Each card represents one of six questions:
About me in general, what is my most important characteristic?
I drew the three of Pentacles.
The three of Pentacles shows what appears to be an apprentice in discussion with two monks. It indicates teamwork and that all participants in the scene are valued (as the monks appear to be listening to what that apprentice has to say and they are all working together).
I think this card is telling me that my most important characteristic is that I don’t think I’m better than anyone else and am prepared to work with others to get to where we need to be, that I don’t particularly need or want individual praise.
What strengths do I already have as a Tarot reader, what am I bringing to the course?
I drew the ten of cups
This card indicates happiness, contentment – the feeling that you have achieved all you want to in life especially in the areas of family and relationships. It can also reflect the personal set of values which you believe will lead to happiness and fulfilment.
I think that in terms of the strengths I already have as a tarot reader, this card is telling me my biggest strength is that I am really motivated to learn as much as I can and become better at it, knowing that it will bring me happiness and contentment. Its maybe part of a recent ‘light bulb moment’ I had when I realised I have to look into leading a more spiritual life and look after my mental well being (although I’m not sure what exactly that entails yet…..)
What limits do I feel as I start the course?
I drew the Emperor
The Emperor represents authority, structure and stability. I guess this card is telling me not to rush, take shortcuts or expect too much too soon. And probably telling me not to give up when I’m struggling to read the cards!
What key lessons can I learn on my journey of learning tarot?
I drew the Hierophant (again!)
Is it telling me to use the many resources available from experienced tarot readers to help me to learn? Or am I the Hierophant and its telling me to use my own intuition to help me to learn?
How can I be open to learning and developing on this journey?
I drew the five of Cups
All about loss and disappointment. And regrets. I guess its telling me not to get disheartened!
What is the potential outcome of my Tarot journey?
I drew the six of pentacles
An easy one, I think this card is showing me that if I keep on this journey, I will be able to use the tarot to help others as it helps me. Not necessarily for financial reward, more for an emotional reward – perhaps doing readings for friends or family.
Out of the six cards, the one which speaks to me most is the six of Pentacles and this is the one I’m going to keep with me during the rest of the course. I like the idea of getting good enough to be able to help others with readings.