Posted in Daily Card, Self Awareness, Spirituality, Tarot

The High Priestess


What is it with another Major Arcana card? This week I’m supposed to be looking at the four elements and how they manifest in the Minor Arcana cards and I’ve hardly drawn one to be able to do that!

I can’t quite explain why but I love this card. I love the symbols and the serenity of the image. I’ve done a bit of reading into other people’s interpretations of the High Priestess and it seems there are many different views out there. One thing everyone seems to agree on it that she indicates mystery, the subconscious and intuition. Dreams and all that is hidden.

While I’m trying really hard not to assign feminine/masculine features to the cards, the High Priestess does remind me of a book I’m reading at the moment called ‘Women who run with the Wolves’. Its about stories which have been passed down through generations and often mentions ‘The Wild Woman’ or the ‘One who knows’. This is the wild, intuitive nature of women which is often lost due to societal pressure or pressures from those around us. It is about how we, as women, can start to rediscover what the author calls our ‘wildish nature’. The High Priestess is like the ‘Wild Woman’, both asking us to trust our inner voice and to look to our feminine intuition for guidance, for we can rely on that more than anything else.

I don’t know what message the High Priestess has for me today. It could possibly be that I need to look beyond what seems obvious (to discover what is hidden behind the curtain…) or that I need to allow something to happen without any interaction on my part. It could be that I need to not act rashly, rather wait patiently until I have the answer.

The day is only halfway through so I’ll try to bear this in mind should anything come up during the rest of the day!

Posted in Daily Card, ME/Chronic Fatigue, Self Awareness, Tarot

Daily Card – The Ace of Swords


It was always going to happen that I would get behind. I was doing so well with drawing a daily card and then blogging about it. I think that some days, I’m just so exhausted after work, the last thing I feel like doing is sitting in front of a laptop screen again.

I’m told that this is the best way to learn though so I need to stick at it. I drew the Ace of Swords today, the second time in a few days that I have drawn this card. So it would seem that there is an important message in this card which I need to uncover!

So, as a sword card we’re thinking about something taking place in the mind, the rational mind as opposed to intuition and possibly cutting through illusions. To me, this card seems to be a ‘cut the crap’ card! As an ace, its suggesting new beginnings. The hand is offering a ‘gift’ – a sword, a gift of knowledge?

I think this is all to do with moving on, or my inability to move on. I think its telling me that if I want to move on, I need to maybe face reality, move past the bitterness I’m currently feeling and deal with issues in a logical rather than an emotional way.

I think its telling me that I need to accept that, health-wise, this is how it is for the time being. I think its telling me that I need to forgive those people/situations who I blame for my recent M.E. relapse and that I need to keep my cool and react in a calm manner if provoked instead of losing my cool. But also that I have the strength to do this.

I think this card is telling me that if I really, truly want to find more contentment in my life and have that new beginning, I need to ‘cut the crap’, cut through through the tricks my mind plays on me and be completely honest with myself.





Posted in ME/Chronic Fatigue, Self Awareness, Tarot

The Sunday Blues/The Reader’s Reading

Sunday. Always a strange day for me. No matter how hard I try, the second half of it is usually spent feeling a little miserable and anxious, knowing that another weekend will soon be over and it will be back to work tomorrow. I call this the ‘Sunday Blues’.

I know I’m not alone in this (other colleagues will hold their hands up and admit to this too) but I really need to get out of this habit of wishing my life away. Its going fast enough as it is. Something else to add to my ever growing list of ‘things I’d like to change about me’.

As so much in my life, the answer isn’t as straight forward as just getting a new job. I don’t think it would matter what job I was doing, unless it was something creative I would probably feel the same way. And I’m not sure the middle of an M.E. flare up is the best time to start looking for a new job!

Before the ‘Sunday Blues’ hit, I made time this morning to continue with week one’s exercises for The Alternative Tarot Course. Slightly scary stuff today – a six card spread which Beth created and called The Reader’s Reading. The idea is to learn more about yourself as a tarot reader. Each card represents one of six questions:

About me in general, what is my most important characteristic?

I drew the three of Pentacles.


The three of Pentacles shows what appears to be an apprentice in discussion with two monks. It indicates teamwork and that all participants in the scene are valued (as the monks appear to be listening to what that apprentice has to say and they are all working together).

I think this card is telling me that my most important characteristic is that I don’t think I’m better than anyone else and am prepared to work with others to get to where we need to be, that I don’t particularly need or want individual praise.

What strengths do I already have as a Tarot reader, what am I bringing to the course?

I drew the ten of cups


This card indicates happiness, contentment – the feeling that you have achieved all you want to in life especially in the areas of family and relationships. It can also reflect the personal set of values which you believe will lead to happiness and fulfilment.

I think that in terms of the strengths I already have as a tarot reader, this card is telling me my biggest strength is that I am really motivated to learn as much as I can and become better at it, knowing that it will bring me happiness and contentment. Its maybe part of a recent ‘light bulb moment’ I had when I realised I have to look into leading a more spiritual life and look after my mental well being (although I’m not sure what exactly that entails yet…..)

What limits do I feel as I start the course?

I drew the Emperor


The Emperor represents authority, structure and stability. I guess this card is telling me not to rush, take shortcuts or expect too much too soon. And probably telling me not to give up when I’m struggling to read the cards!

What key lessons can I learn on my journey of learning tarot?

I drew the Hierophant (again!)


Is it telling me to use the many resources available from experienced tarot readers to help me to learn? Or am I the Hierophant and its telling me to use my own intuition to help me to learn?

How can I be open to learning and developing on this journey?

I drew the five of Cups


All about loss and disappointment. And regrets. I guess its telling me not to get disheartened!

What is the potential outcome of my Tarot journey?

I drew the six of pentacles


An easy one, I think this card is showing me that if I keep on this journey, I will be able to use the tarot to help others as it helps me. Not necessarily for financial reward, more for an emotional reward – perhaps doing readings for friends or family.

Out of the six cards, the one which speaks to me most is the six of Pentacles and this is the one I’m going to keep with me during the rest of the course. I like the idea of getting good enough to be able to help others with readings.


Posted in Self Awareness, Spirituality, Tarot

Why Tarot and am I really a Hierophant?


Now its the weekend, I’ve finally had chance to make a proper start on the Alternative Tarot Course. Week one is all about me as a tarot reader, why I want to learn to read the cards and create something to look back on when I’m more experienced. I’ve also found out how to calculate my tarot birth card which is apparently The Hierophant. But more on that later…

Its interesting to think a bit more about why I’ve now decided to start to seriously learn how to become better at reading the cards and I’ve used the prompts in the course to help me think about it.

What was my first experience of Tarot?

My first reading was about three years ago with a lovely lady who I knew (she was also our cat sitter amongst her many other talents). I thought I’d get a reading just for fun really but was blown away by the reading she did for me. I was going through a difficult time at work at the time and all of the cards I drew seemed to point to that situation and what I needed to do to protect myself. I think it was also a big moment for her too as I drew something like 6 Major Arcana cards in a 9 card spread. She said that had never happened to her before and that it was unusual for anyone to draw even one in the readings she had done for others.

I had another reading with her again maybe a year later when I was going through another difficult situation, this time personal. Again, all of the cards seemed to be talking to me about that situation and at that point I knew it was something I wanted to learn for myself. Sadly, my Tarot lady moved to the other end of the country so I’ve not had any more readings from her since but I still have her notes on those readings and I’m going to dig them out and reread them.

Why do I want to learn Tarot?

I bought my first (and so far only) deck not long after that second reading along with some books. I went with the Rider-Waite deck as it was the one she had used and appeared to be one of the most widely used. I’ve played with it a little since but have never really got to grips with it. For some reason, I’ve felt a calling to get back to it just recently and signed up the course to help me. I think that this has happened now because I’m at a low point in my life, health and work wise, and at some sort of crossroads. I’m feeling a pull towards living my life in a more spiritual way and Tarot fits in to that. I want to be able to use the cards to guide me, help me to answer questions and help me to find myself. I would like to get the confidence to read for others at some point but its more for me at the moment.

How do I feel about learning Tarot in three words?

Excited, inspired, daunted

Tarot’s main purpose for me?

To guide, to show the truth of a situation and to help provide answers.

Anything I don’t believe about Tarot?

I don’t believe it can predict the future but other than that, I’m opening to believing anything at this point.

What do I think the most important qualities of a Tarot reader are?

I’m struggling to answer this question. Maybe conviction in their own interpretations of the cards and a calm, unthreatening manner?

What do I hope to gain from learning Tarot?

More self assurance in my decision making, peace and calm in knowing I have some guidance, a more spiritual way of life, a deeper understanding of myself and others.

What will my main challenges be and how will I overcome them?

I think my biggest obstacles will be time and energy. Also I do have a tendency to be impatient and get disheartened quite easily. I’ll try to overcome them by allowing myself as much time as I need, setting aside time each day and using other resources such as other peoples’ blogs to inspire me.

So back to the Hierophant…..

My first reaction was that I’m more elephant than Hierophant! I saw that there is what appears to be a religious figure on a throne. It reminded me of a Catholic priest, dressed in fine robes and a crown of sorts, holding a gold cross. The figure appears to be ‘preaching’ to the other two figures. I couldn’t see much of myself in this scenario, I’ve never thought myself to be a leader of any kind and would hope that I don’t preach to people 😉

As  I was struggling to relate to this card in any way, I decided to look up a few different interpretations of the Hierophant.

The fifth card of the Major Arcana, it represents traditional values and convention. I guess that is where the religious feel of the card comes in and why the card is sometimes known as the ‘High Priest’. The card suggests the desire to stay within the boundaries of what is acceptable, adapting to an existing set of beliefs. It can indicate a spiritual leader, guide or institution. It can relate to identifying with a group, belief system or following the rules. It can be about ‘doing the right thing’.

Now I’ve found out a bit more, I can identify a little more with the Hierophant. I have been told I have a strong sense of right and wrong and that I will always stand up for my beliefs. I am guilty sometimes of thinking I am right and therefore others must be wrong and when its an issue or cause I feel passionately about (such as animal cruelty), I do refuse to accept viewpoints other than my own.

I do also have an ingrained fear of breaking the rules and I have always been someone that people come to when they need someone to listen or need advice. I wouldn’t ever see myself as a leader or guide although I guess its possible other people might see me that way. Also, although I don’t always get it right,  I do generally try to do the right thing.

So it turns out I do have more in common with my birthday Tarot card than I first thought. I’m loving this course and how its making me think not only about the cards but also forcing me to be more honest about who I am.